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Book Project Reckless Mercy


Partner with me to raise the funds needed to finish up my book project, Reckless Mercy: A Trophy of God's Grace.
Your financial contribution will go to fund ghost writing, editing, and initial printing costs.

I had originally planned to fully fund this project myself, but recent hospitalizations and health difficulties have prevented that as an option. I'm asking your help to partner with me to provide the final expenses needed to fund the release of Reckless Mercy in July 2017.

Synopsis of Reckless Mercy by Carl Tuttle:


My world came crashing down around me in 1997.
It was entirely my fault. While it was an utterly devastating experience, followed by equally devastating years of slow rebuilding, I also realize that it was a beautiful act of God’s reckless mercy toward me that brought me to such a place.

I have known God’s goodness and provision from the age of five when I had a sovereign experience that I knew could only come from God. At age 11, I walked into a church gathering for the first time and immediately felt the welcoming embrace of a new family of faith that could fill the holes that my natural family could not. Among the many emissaries of God’s mercy to me at that young age was John Wimber. My life would never be the same from that moment on. 

After stumbling through tumultuous teen years and then seeming to find a new balance in life, I found myself once again in God’s hands of mercy during an accidental revival. That revival put a guitar in my hands, song on my lips, and birthed what would eventually become the Vineyard Movement.  

As I continued to grow in worship abilities, song writing, and leadership, I also grew in mounting shame. I didn’t deserve the recognition I was receiving. I certainly didn’t deserve to work alongside John Wimber and participate in the overwhelming grace God was pouring onto the Vineyard. I felt like a fraud, and the only way I knew how to deal with that shame was to mask my insecurity with a veneer of confidence and charisma. 

Pockets of joy and peace speckled the early years of my marriage and growing family. However, my wife, Sonja, and I functioned together best when we were busy with ministry. A thriving church plant, successful worship labels, and growing fame served their purpose well to stifle the growing turmoil in my marriage and personal life. And yet, through it all, God still lavished his mercies on me by sustaining me and using my broken attempts at ministry for His greater purposes in the kingdom. 

In 1995, when I was asked to take over the role as senior pastor of Anaheim Vineyard, Sonja and I somehow deluded ourselves into believing that this tremendous addition of stress would be good for our disintegrating marriage, and I convinced myself that being in this position would miraculously relieve me of my shame and I would finally feel at home in my own skin. A sudden onslaught of anxiety attacks proved those hopes to be false. I spiraled downward, at times indulging in unhealthy behaviors to escape the stress. 

My marriage continued to disintegrate, and eventually Sonja reached her tipping point and the mirage came falling apart. The narrative I had spent years constructing, the façade of control, shattered into a million pieces. I resigned as senior pastor and dispensed all my efforts into regaining my marriage and fixing the brokenness I found myself drowning in. Through the rubble of the shattered pieces, God lifted me up, sustained me, and rebuilt me into the man He wanted me to become. 

My desert season took me through divorce, exile, heartache, and loneliness. God’s mercy toward me took me on a two-decade journey to healing and restoration. It was painful, tedious, slow, and glorious. Through that journey, I discovered that Jesus is enough.

In recent years, I have reunited with my Vineyard family after years of exile, and I’ve returned having experienced God's healing and restorative power.
All my years of ministry experience, struggle, and restoration have enabled me to step back into ministry with a power and authority that can only come through knowing He is enough and depending on God’s reckless mercy. 

Here is a video about some of my story:


To find out more about me please visit www.carltuttle.com
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Huntington Beach, CA

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